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What Keeps Me Up at Night
Six hours and five (forced) minutes. Poor. Two hours and twenty-seven minutes. So bad it’s not even rated. According to my Fitbit, I don’t sleep well. My brain and body agree. But a curious thing happened a few days back: The Fitbit gave me an extra hour after-the-fact, as in…
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The Only One Not Naked
You know those dreams where you’re out in public and realize you’re not wearing pants? Or maybe you are topless and your boobs (male or female) are hanging out? You’re pretty sure that’s not OK, but it’s confusing to you. Last night was not one of those dreams. In my…
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Be Good
The ball of my right hand is starting to swell, the flesh bright red. Great. All that from attempting to open the door to the small microwave I had ordered for the basement. Yes, we’re 60+ and ‘living in our mother’s basement.’ I have a space that I’m setting up…
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Legacy Lost and Found
The leaves are gone, the baron trees outside our window give way to burn-scarred earth and sky-splitting sticks of what were once ponderosa pines — jutting from wintry ground that rolls up the mountain. We’re here. Home. The ranch is gone — busy continuing its rebirth after the Missionary Ridge…
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God Only Knows
I’m having a difficult time passing up the reels on Facebook and TikTok that depict MAGAts awaiting judgement at the Pearly Gates. In a red hat, superior stance, chest puffed, they look to St. Peter in full anticipation of the glories of reaching a higher place as reward for the…
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Seize the Day
Hallelujah, thank you Lord! I am finally honoring my first day of retirement! I say ‘honor’ because celebrating is either way in the past* or way in the future. Too much to do; too little time. Amid all the closings and the insurance, the upgrades to the current home, and…
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Interpretation
The first person I told at work about my retirement — other than my boss who died four days later — was my dearest, most revered friend who introduced me to the team 20 years ago. And, no surprise, because he is the nicest guy, he said the nicest thing!…
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The Landing
I’m disappearing. No, not like ‘I’m going to disappear,’ rather I’m in the process of disappearing. Little by little, cell by cell. I imagine it’s a lot like dying — you’re moving to another plane of existence and it’s frightening but you really don’t have a choice and maybe the…
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Windows
I scrubbed the window through which I can see the mountains from my desk — and made it worse. Instead of the blotchy rain-dust spatters on the glass, there are now misty, horizontal streaks. And while I was cleaning, it occurred to me that, yes, God does not close the…
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Only to Be Lost Again
Happy Easter! Today, will be busy and bright, and I’ll spend moments of stillness and reflection looking through the messages and prayers that offer new science, theology and insights on Christ’s resurrection. And I’ll feel blue, as I always do. It occurs to me that even though this is a…
At Least They're Committed 